ALL RIGHT I will post

Lets see here is the kind of week I've had...
Fell in love, and possibly out of it....
got a job offer at the dept of corrections (THANK GOD) ((CAN WE USE THE WORD GOD HERE??))
Been sick every darn morning, freezing to death in 70' degree weather, gassy, got annoyed when I realized period is late, bought an EPT test knowing I was jumping the gun and found out I am preg.
:O
I am what?
OH MY.
I pro-offered my feelings to the man I've been seeing (omiting the fact that I am preg) and he stated that he was not sure he wanted a relationship but he was fond of me (yes sir I know I am good in bed, But I want to be loved too) anyway... I got kinda edgy on the phone with him and he states "I know thats not what was bothering you, all day today (we'd gone to a flea market) you acted like you had something to say to me and you kept looking at me like I did something wrong to you, what in the hell is going on?"
Me (in an indignent and borderline teary voice with the over hand of impending doom and distraught) "My period is more then 10 days late"
him "Well that may change things about how I feel about a relationship, that accounts for the look now why were you generally annoyed"
me"I took a home test and well... I'm scared, I'm 33 and your 40 and you already voiced how you feel"
BLAH BLAH BLAH
after about an hour of this that and the other thing he gives me the (false?) reassurance that I am not going to go through this alone (emotionally I can't, I can not raise another child alone)
yadda yadda yadda
Anyones week been better? And despite it all (the terror, the uncertin lover, the damn job offer... can I take a job as a CO going in preg?)

.... is it ok to feel this unyielding Joy inside?
Because, believe it or not, I am kinda happy.

The Wolf

Hey ladies, I got this passed to me as an email this morning. I really like the message and thought I would share.

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about abattle that goes on inside people. He said, "My son, the battle is between 2 "wolves" inside us all. One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy,sorrow, regret,greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego. The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith." The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: "Which wolf wins?"The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

O. Baby. It's Cold...

(Sorry I haven't been posting. I'm trying to get the hang of studies + work + home after being away from any formal schooling for a looooooooooooooong time.)

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That's right!

O. Baby. It's cold... Inside and out.

My main "cuddle"-partner these days?

*sighs*

The CAT!

She, (her name is Dr. Suess. Dr. CLAUDIA Suess) snuck pass the pile of text books I was climbing through this weekend, settling into the comforter I had stretched across my lap, lapsing into a soft purr.

I was so into the written word I failed to even look at her as she nested.

When I did give her the half second of attention she'll tolerate outta me, I noticed she was sporting a 'spider-web' bonnet.

*Sigh2*

Seems like all creatures great and small are lookin' for a little extention to comfort and warmth in the relay-hand-off of youthful Summer to that fickle-dandy, Autumn...

I can't help but wonder when old man Winter will come screaming in??? I'm hoping he'll hold off until November and let the little kids have their tricks and treats.

Meanwhile... Note to self: Spider safari with Dr. Suess - a.s.a.p.!!!

Echo....Echo....Echo....

WOW! This must be a Yay-Yay record....one week with no posts! I just can't allow this to go on any longer....I must have something new to read when I open our blog. Therefore, I must write something worth reading over and over and over and over again. Oh, the pressure! It's a good thing I'm on some good drugs....there's no way I could face this challenge without them. (by "good drugs" I mean hydrocodone....prescribed by my wonderful Dr for whatever it is my knee is doing. For the full story, read my blog....it's not exciting enough to retell on here.)

I give up....I can't come up with anything worth reading repeatedly. I'll just ramble on and on about whatever pops into my drug-addled brain.

First of all, I just finished reading The Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan. Can I just say, "Huh?" Parts were interesting....but, I had a hard time getting into all the mini-bios. Remembering who everyone was, etc. It was too much work.

Speaking of work...I've been off work for ages now. I was planning on going back to work today....problem is I can't handle the pain in my knee without hydrocodone and I can't do my job while knocked out on my chubby-bubby butt. Therefore, I'm home....keeping myself drugged and full of chocolate. I should be finding out in the near future what's up with this stupid knee of mine. One very nice thing is that I'm still getting paid while sitting at home drugged up and full of chocolate! YAY!!

So, I've got a new cell phone. Only bad thing about having a phone is people calling me. It's not the people I know that bothers me...it's all the wrong numbers. At least, I have unlimited air time! I love the calls from my 4 gojus neices! Love it when I answer the phone and hear, "Hi, Auntie Kathy!" (yes, my family calls me Kathy....they are the only ones allowed to do so. All others will be viciously ignored.)

Butchy is talking about something...no clue what. I think it's about something I asked her, but I'm not sure. I need to eat something and take more drugs...my knee is starting to holler at me. Funny how chocolate doesn't make my knee feel better....I thought it was all powerful. Now I'm sad.

So, what silly, stupid, funny, moronic things have your family members said/done lately? I need to be entertained....sure beats trying to keep up with whatever Butchy is talking about.....

My Dilemma

I have a dilemma. I've wanted to start this home based business. A friend has been talking to me about it for about 2 weeks or so. He hasn't been with all that long. Every time I have asked questions, he has answered them, but the answers were just very to the point and that was it. I'm sure he is, but he doesn't show a lot of enthusiasm. He doesn't force himself on anyone. Now, I ran across someone else’s website while doing more investigating about this company. These people are in Nashville (pretty close to us) and they are National Directors). That alone speaks volumes to me. I looked at their "Special Package" (for the same money) and it included twice as much as what my friend could offer. Well of course, National Directors are in a position to offer more. I've been involved with home based businesses before and I know that whom you sign up does affect your success. Well I decided o try it one more time since I have never dealt "directly" with National Directors before. Now my dilemma is how to tell my friend. I would try not to tell him at all and I could get by with that for a while, but I don't want to start out on the wrong foot by being dishonest. On the other hand, I don't want to hurt him or make him angry. I don't want to lose another friend. After going through that this past summer (I'm sure some of you remember reading about all that), I don't know if I could handle that again. I even thought I'd make up a little contract and give him half of my first bonus or sale because he showed this to me in the first place. That way he wouldn't be out completely. What do ya'll think? I'm really stuck on this one.

Have you ever wanted to throw your computer out of the window?

Good Morning Ladies,
Question of the day: Have you ever wanted to throw your computer out of the window? I do, right now! Some days it just drives me up the wall. I have a blog on Typepad which ya'll know. I tried to make a simple little post this morning. It should have taken all of 15 minutes from beginning to end. Here we are almost an hour later. Do we have that post, NO! Why? well, I assume it's Typepad, moving Slooooooooooooooow. Then right when I think it is going to finally post, I get this "Gateway Timed Out Notice", AHhhhhhhhh! I gave up and came over here to vent so I wouldn't throw it out. Other sites including this one are moving along just fine, it's just Typepad. So I guess I'll wait and work on that later tonight.
A friend of mine has called and wants me to go to Nashville with him. He has a homebased business and he wants me to look at it today. I said I'd go. I'd like to have something to supplement my income, but I have gotten into things before that didn't work out (or I didn't work out with it), in any case it was a waste of time and money. Maybe this will be different, we'll see. I'll let ya'll know when I get back, so wish me luck.
Oh, one more thing, I asked a very close friend to be the execetor of my will last night. She was stunned. She didn't say no, she needs to pray about it which I understand. Please say a prayer that she will accept. I do need someone like her.
Well, that's it for right now. I'll catch ya'll later. Have a great day today.

Sydney (aka Patty-as I told Princess Kat, I don't put my real name on the net)

Happy Birthday!

Well, all, we have a couple of birthdays to celebrate today! Kat and Anita were both born on this day 39 years ago! Happiest of birthdays to you both!!! :-)

midnight scuffle

Ok now I gots your attention, I don't have a darn thing to say except HELLO! Havn't been blogging. Been dealing with my child and the buracracy (SP) of the school systems. (eye roll) oh and I went and got a boyfriend (now why would i do a crazy thing like that?) well i did anyway. Hmmm, whatelse. Cool damp weather is setting in so we started back on the sweet feed for the horses. (which means pain in the neck at least twice a week hauling feed to the barn feed shed) What an exciting life I live. Well I guess I will have to go and view the toys at pabo.com and make my christmas wish list!

Sorry, Girl!

As most everyone already knows....I'm a dork! Butchy brought to my attention that on my "Welcome" posts I had the same blog url link on both of them.

I've seen the error of my ways and have made the necessary correction.....so, Yay-Yays....go give a big warm welcome to GIRL!

Book Recommendation

I finished reading The Tender Bar this week. I LOVED it. I have always been a fan of fiction, usually crime dramas, sometimes romance. I read The Tender Bar since the authors cousin is a local radio guy who I love to listen to. It's a non-fiction memoir by this guy, J.R. Moehringer who is in his early 40's. He tells a story of growing up in Long Island, single mom, not alot of money and an Uncle who owned a bar that he ended up on spending ALOT of time in. The story of J.R. became a real page turner, the guy knows how to tell a story.
I like reading Kim's blog..not just cause Kim's a cool Yay Yay but because she is also a great story teller. You put your Thin Ice story along with the skinny dipping one and others into a published memoir..you've got yourself a book just like J.R. on the best seller list.
My recommendation; if you like to read and like stories like Kim tells on her blog you will LOVE the Tender Bar.
FYI: My hubby went to the book signing, got an autographed first edition for me and mailed it as a surprise to my hotel while I was there for business in Chicago. Major brownie points.

Say Hello to Sydney!

Please welcome Sydney to the Sisterhood! 2 new members! YAY-YAY!!!

Tidbits & Other Crap

I'm sitting at home on my ever-spreading ass, watching dvds, eating anything I can find that doesn't have the words healthy, sugar-free, low-carb/fat/calorie/salt/taste on the label AND...I'm getting paid for it! God, I love America! ::insert God Bless America here::

In case you haven't been by my blog lately....I don't blame you, I haven't been either!...I still love my job. I'm meeting new & interesting people, more new than interesting. The cross-dresser is someone you could consider interesting. Whatever you do....DO NOT insinuate that he's gay! God forbid! By insinuate, I simply mean don't tell him that when you saw him walk through the lobby while waiting for your horrid group interview and noticed how the employees accepted him that you really wanted to get hired there......you know, cuz you're gay and saw diversity in action.....yeah....don't tell him that story, cuz he will assume you are saying he's gay.....gay? No....sweetie, just different. Different is ok. Gay is not. Weirdo. His fashion sense is finely tuned....whoever taught him how to do his makeup and hair....it's not funny. The joke is over. Please, give the guy some tips!

Next subject: Who made the rule that if a woman is wide then her shirts must be short? Showing off my midriff is NOT on my list of things to do before I die. And for the record...I don't have a mid-riff.....I have a maxi-riff! Noone wants to see it...including me! Lucky for me, if I'm not in front of a mirror I can't see it....but, what about all those poor folks walking towards me?!? It's just not pretty.

Speaking of maxi-riffs.....mine will soon be changing. I'm really gearing up to go back on my Katkins Diet. I'll be posting on Shrinking Yay-Yays as I get closer to taking that final leap. I've already bought a big box of meat....it's just sitting in the freezer waiting for me. If we can't find my vitamins that I have somewhere in a box....I'll be buying vitamins at Costco out of my next check. I refuse to start my diet without having all my poop in a group.....without the vitamins I won't have any poop to group, I'll be one constipated cranky ass. Not a very happy fat Kat.

Our Sisterhood is growing. We have an approved new member that will be added to the roll as soon as she accepts our invitation. I'm sure y'all will enjoy getting to know her.

Did you notice the new header? Slowly, but surely, our look will be changing. Why? Because I'm bored with our look and it's time for a makeover. Nothing too drastic....just some nips & tucks. You'll still recognize our page. As soon as I learn how to do the "table thing".....watch out! This is my vacation project....I still have 3 days to work on it.

Ok...I'm done. That's about enough out of me!

Absentia

My eldest son has moved into my mother's temporarily. After two times of running away within two weeks, all the macho tough-guy attitude, and a flurry of implied threats, I was at wit's end. So, now he's absent from the house, over two hours' drive away, and I hope to god it helps. He just isn't my son any more. It doesn't help that he has Senorita Psychopath so far up his ass that he's growing boobs. I know, I know: he has his own mind and makes his own choices. However, this girl puts most con artists to shame. She is apparently taking a short leave of absence from her home too, which I'm desperately hoping becomes permanent, but I can't turn her into 'forbidden fruit'. Made that mistake already. It doesn't help that he has low self-esteem and his own bipolar disorder to deal with on top of all the usual teenage crappola. All I know is, he's normally a pretty good kid (lots of attitude) and that kid is gone. Even the one who's taken his place is gone. I'm just hoping and praying I get them back. Okay, I prefer the original to this doppellganger, but I still miss him. And I worry about him and what's going to happen when he comes back from mom's.

Popping in...

We've had the first of probably many court dates against Jeff's ex today. She got the house in the divorce, but never took the mortgage out of Jeff's name. We found out she moved in with her fiance a month before the divorce was final, so she never needed the house, anyway. We'd asked her to sign the house over to us, but she said only if we paid her for the house plus paid her all the equity and 5000 down. There is just no way we could have done that. The house is 90,000.

We took her to court, and we got a little breathing room. But it has to go to a higher court next month. We'd thought this would all be over by now, so we put in our notice on this place over two months ago. The landlords are already finding renters, so we can't even get an extension.

We found a house for 75,000 (it's a foreclosure), and we've checked it out and contacted the realtor, but we'll need a co-signer. We can affor the payments (less than 600 a month), but not a downpayment. We've asked his mother, but she's already paying for the lawyer. The vehicle we have is a loan from one of our clients. My aunt is giving me a van, and I'm forced to consider either taking out a loan on it in order to come up with funds for a rental, or even to sell it. Problem is, we don't know how long we have the loaned van.

I've even been reduced to ask an old boyfriend to either co-sign the house, or to buy it and land-contract it to us. It's very humiliating, believe me.

Whatever does happen, we have three weeks to move. We don't know where, but it does mean I will be offline for awhile after that. I'll try to check in from the library once in awhile.

Good afternoon ladies!

I too feel like I need to check in. I've been half ass good about bloging on my own blog..bad about doing it here:

Updates in the land of Mary Pat:
Thought I might be pregnant, found out this morning that I'm not :0( not really trying but it would have been nice.
We got really in the grove on fixing the kitchen but w/ Drew off school (year round school, cycle break) and over alot we've slowed down a bit..need to still get measured, although we've paid and have our design etc.
Husband being extremely nice and sweet, I like it alot.
Husband needs MRI after high BP kidney scare in the hospital. Little spot in there, they think maybe just a fatty tumor, but that want to make sure.
Work going good, been extremely busy, a little slower this week, I have time to breath and blog :0p
Parents getting way to old; 80 and 85 this month.
Both cars have issues, may need to get rid of little white car. Bummer.
Really looking forward to Fall. Cool front may come through tonight, I don't want it cold enough I have to wear socks but cool enough for sweaters.
I'm totally psyched for the playoffs..want to see the Cardinals win it this year, last year was truley Red Sox destiny.
If you are looking for a great book, pick up the Tender Bar. It's in the non-fiction..but reads like fiction.
We got the equivilant of Tivo on our Dish..too cool.
We're playing Fall Bocce at Milo's. (corner bar/family place katty corner from church). Had fun last night.
Got an internal stye, it burns.
Diagnosed w/ Adie's Pupil. I have one pupil that doesn't dialate properly. If you look you can tell I have a freaky eye. It's like halloween everyday when you look at me. I'll live..no change as of now to my vision. Your body natually learns to adapt.
Stupid woman that took our dog dropped it back in our yard the other day. NICE...bitch. Now we have to drive over an hour and a half on Saturday afternoon and take him back to shelter. Don't you all remember I just dealt w/ this 5 months ago!
OK...so that's about it for me. The extremely mundane is on my blog!

I need to pee

I know I haven't posted here like I should. I haven't posted anywhere like I should. And right now I really really have to pee. But before I go....I have one question that is bugging the shit out of me.

WHY OH WHY MUST MY 9 YEAR OLD SON LEAVE HIS DIRTY UNDERWEAR ON MY COUCH EVERYDAY????????

Okay I'm good. Potty time.

Happy Tuesday everyone!!!!

Not dead neither.

Oh my gosh, ladies. It's been so long and I vomit apologies profusely. I haven't been really busy, so I have no excuse. I just went into a phase where I didn't care to post. Not even on my own blog. But....! I went so long without it, I ended up spewing crap all over it. I really do need my blog to even things out. Anyway, I've got to go to my crappy-assed job, but I can't wait to start reading all your blogs again and catch up with what ya'll are up to.

Alot Has Happened

Well, since I have last posted, I have been living with friends and seeing the kids whenever I can.
I am working but, I have taken the last 2 days off because I am worthless at work.
I just got my own trailor this morning and will be picking up essentials from the house around 5 this evening.
My mother-in-law has changed the locks on the house and told Keith that I am not welcome there. Of course, it is her house and, I pay rent but there is no proof that I pay rent.
Though if the kids are there, I will be over there in a flash no matter whenever I take a notion because they are my children as well, and she will NOT keep me from my children.
So, Keith and I are getting a divorce and I should have alot of things out of the house by Thursday of this week.
Sorry I have not posted in a while.
I hope everyone is doing fine.

Blessings Abound

Wow! I seemed to have missed a lot! I'm glad that Jordan has been returned and is doing so well. I cannot imagine the terror. Brightest Blessings for you and yours, Kim!

As a brief update, my eldest (16) has decided to run away from home twice int he last two weeks. I'm waiting for the next one. There's a psycho bitch involved. I mean, really! Of course, there's absolutely nothing I can do short of chaining him up in the basement. Which is sounding better all the time. Other than that, school is going well, my other two kids are growing faster than I can buy clothes for them, my recycled hubby is still ticking me off on a regular basis, I have a workstudy job and a writing internship that I love, and I've been meeting and greeting Katrina evacuees over the past two weeks. I'm also hoping to pitch in helping recovered pets find their dislocated owners. I'm just glad to help.

Blessings to you all! I'll try to keep up from now on!